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Day 90: Self-Forgiveness on Parenting, Responsibility & Fear of Failure

juillet 12, 2025

These past days, I faced one of the deepest fears and points of pain in my life — my relationship with my son, with my ex-wife, and with myself as a father. My son failed in school this year. His words hit me like a storm: "ما بقاش شي معنا لهاد الحيات" "نتوما سباب... نتا أو أمي أو عمي..." These words awakened old emotions: regret, guilt, fear, and self-blame. And also, the hidden anger I held toward myself and toward others — emotions I didn’t fully want to face. Today, I choose to face them with responsibility. Not to justify. But to forgive myself, and realign myself. 🔹 Self-Forgiveness Statements I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a failed father because my son failed in school, instead of seeing that I can stand and become a support from this moment forward. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the judgment of others — my ex-wife, my son, society — instead of breathing, groundi...

Day 89 : Self-Forgiveness on My Relationship with Social Media

juin 29, 2025

For a long time, I used social media as more than a tool. It became a mirror, a stage, and sometimes — a trap. I wanted people to see me. To admire me. To validate who I believed I was — or who I wanted them to think I was. But the more I posted, the more I realized I wasn’t expressing myself freely… I was curating myself. And with every like or view, I was feeding an image, not my real self. 💬 Self-Forgiveness Statements: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and believe in a self-image on social media — a mental picture of who I think I should be — instead of walking moment by moment in breath, as who I really am in the physical. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust an image more than breath , using social media to build and protect that image, rather than stopping it and discovering who I am without it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to be seen in a certain ...

Day 88 : Facing Regret: A Journey of Self-Forgiveness and Real Change

juin 27, 2025

For years, the emotion of regret held me hostage. Whether it was regrets about past choices, sexual energy experiences, missed opportunities, or moments where I betrayed my integrity — it was like a weight I couldn't drop. But through walking with TechnoTutor , self-forgiveness , and daily breathing awareness, I realized: Regret is not punishment. It is a message from the past — asking to be faced, understood, and finally released . 🔎 What is Regret? Regret is the emotional consequence of judging ourselves for the past — feeling that we should have acted differently, been better, more in control, or more aware. But as I dug deeper, I saw that regret was often just a loop: Regret → Shame → Addiction behavior → More regret So I decided to interrupt that cycle with self-honesty. 🧭 Self-Forgiveness Statements on Regret Here are some of the self-forgiveness statements I walked. I share them here for anyone also carrying this heavy emotion: I forgive myself that I ...

Day 87 : Breaking Free from the Need to Be Seen

juin 24, 2025

While jogging today, I noticed a familiar pattern in my mind. As I passed people or vehicles, my mind automatically started imagining what others were thinking or saying about me. It created stories like: “They think I look good,” or “They’re judging me.” These thoughts came with a mix of feelings — sometimes pride, sometimes insecurity. It’s as if my mind constantly scans for attention, validation, or some imagined threat of judgment. I also noticed how easily these thoughts shift into comparison — better than, less than — and how much energy I spend living in those projections instead of being here, in my body, breathing. But I’ve been walking a process of self-forgiveness and awareness, and I see now: this pattern doesn’t define me. I have the power to stop it, to breathe, and return to who I really am — not a performance, not a projection, but presence. 🔄 Self-Forgiveness Statements I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysel...

Day 86 : Facing Shame: A Journey of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Trust

juin 22, 2025

For many years, I carried shame like a silent companion — heavy, invisible, but always close. Shame shaped how I saw myself, how I interacted with others, and how I reacted to the challenges of life. It was one of the most difficult emotions to face, because it told me: “There’s something wrong with you.” “You’re broken.” “You’ll never change.” Through working with Desteni I Process and TechnoTutor , I began writing out the layers of shame. What I found surprised me: Shame wasn’t a punishment. It was a signal — that I was believing something about myself that wasn't actually true. It was a sign that I was ready to change. Here are some of the self-forgiveness statements I wrote: 🔹 Self-Forgiveness on Shame I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the emotion of shame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am flawed and unworthy because of past mistakes. I forgive myself that I have acce...

Day 85 : Why I’m Starting Again

juin 20, 2025

I’m Starting Again It’s been months since I posted here. I’ve wanted to come back many times, but there was always a voice in my mind: “You’re not ready. You’ve failed. People will judge you.” But today I choose something different. I choose to show up as I am — not perfect, not finished, but real . I’ve Walked Through Patterns Emotional patterns. Addictions. Highs and lows. Moments of strength — and moments of giving up. But even in the darkest times, a part of me was still breathing, still watching, still wanting to understand. Still choosing to continue. What Changed? Lately, I realized something: I don’t need to be perfect to write. Writing is how I support myself. It helps me see what I’ve accepted and allowed — and what I can change. This blog is not about showing success. It’s about showing up , again and again, as I walk my process. Self-Forgiveness I’m Living Now I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myse...

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