Day 87 : Breaking Free from the Need to Be Seen

While jogging today, I noticed a familiar pattern in my mind.

As I passed people or vehicles, my mind automatically started imagining what others were thinking or saying about me. It created stories like: “They think I look good,” or “They’re judging me.” These thoughts came with a mix of feelings — sometimes pride, sometimes insecurity.

It’s as if my mind constantly scans for attention, validation, or some imagined threat of judgment. I also noticed how easily these thoughts shift into comparison — better than, less than — and how much energy I spend living in those projections instead of being here, in my body, breathing.

But I’ve been walking a process of self-forgiveness and awareness, and I see now: this pattern doesn’t define me. I have the power to stop it, to breathe, and return to who I really am — not a performance, not a projection, but presence.

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🔄 Self-Forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others think of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly imagine how others see me instead of remaining in breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my worth through the imagined approval or judgment of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek validation through how I look, walk, or act.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others in order to feel better or worse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being unseen, unrecognized, or unnoticed — believing that means I’m not enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts of superiority or inferiority instead of realizing we are all equal as life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand why my mind drift to think about what others around me is thinking about me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that all of that comes from mind programming of separation. So I always see myself as a separated entity from others, and so to survive I need always to compare myself with others; to see if there is any treat or opportunity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live through a survival program in my mind that constantly compares me to others in public — looking for threat or validation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I must constantly scan my environment to know my value — instead of standing as self-worth that is here in breath, not based on perception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and project inner stories about what people might be thinking — instead of seeing this as a mind-mechanism of control and insecurity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach energy — pride or insecurity — to these imagined thoughts, and define myself through that energy instead of directing myself back to the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged as inferior — or to secretly desire being seen as superior — not realizing both are two sides of the same polarity system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek comfort and self-worth through imagined praise, instead of realizing that real self-worth is lived, consistent, and not based on others’ reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that how I am seen by others determines who I am — instead of realizing I decide who I am in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the root of these projections is a belief in separation — me versus others — instead of standing in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to bring all parts of me — even the insecure, comparing parts — into self-awareness and responsibility, so I can transform them instead of hiding them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe attention equals value — not realizing that real value is in presence, direction, and living what is best for all.

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✅ Realization

I realize that my mind has been programmed to assess people, project thoughts, and scan for feedback as a way to feel safe, approved, or better than.

I realize that presence in breath needs no validation.

I realize that I have the power to stop the projections, return to my body, and walk in silence and clarity — not in imagined conversations or mental performances.

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🧭 Self-Commitment Statement

I commit myself to stop defining myself through how I imagine others see me. I no longer allow my value, confidence, or presence to depend on projections, looks, or imagined reactions.

I commit myself to bring my attention back to my breath, my body, and the physical reality — especially when I’m in public or walking/jogging.

I commit myself to stop giving energy to mental comparisons — better than or less than — and instead to walk in equality with all beings I meet, regardless of how they look, move, or react.

I commit myself to recognize that my mind has been programmed to fear being unseen, and to seek survival through validation, but I no longer accept this pattern as who I am.

I commit myself to live self-worth through what I create, how I support, how I speak, how I move — not through how others react to me.

I commit myself to walk in public as self — as life — not as a performance, not as a reaction, and not as a search for attention. I am here. I am breath. I am stable.

I commit myself to remain aware of the separation-program that drives me to monitor others’ thoughts — and to use every moment I catch it as a gift to return to myself.