Day 14 : Addictions

 Addiction is being abnormally tolerant to and dependent on something that is psychologically or physically habit - forming. So there is Addictions that is best for me like breathing or drinking water daily  and there is Addictions that is not best for me and for all that lot of us suffer from and get abused by doing it. 

This article is about letting go Addictions that is not best for me and for all. I will treat those addictions in general.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to do what is not best for me and for all. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my physical body and this life by acting on those addictions over and over.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel shame about those addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tolerate and be a slave to those addictions. Like when my mind urge me to act on those addictions I simply obey and start acting on it. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to  whenever my mind urge me to act on those addiction STOP and breathe and let it go. Never tolerate thinking about it. Never tolerate projecting myself acting on it. Never tolerate remembering myself acting on it in the past. Never tolerate any image or sound or scene related to those addictions. Never tolerate actions that lead to those addictions. So whenever I notice my mind bringing those addictions through thoughts, feelings, emotions, projections, images, sounds, or scenes I STOP my mind breathe and let it go.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to investigate what triggers the addiction, the situations, the moments, the feelings, the emotions, the fantasies, the wants/don't and not fall in those moments of wanting to give into the addiction but willingly will myself to STOP the mind and breathe and not act on those addictions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the emotion of anxiety to trigger me to act on those addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the emotion of defeat to trigger me to act on those addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the emotion of revenge to trigger me to act on those addictions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to deal with those emotions with breathing and writing instead of acting on those addictions and abusing myself and LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see and experience those emotions in my physical body to STOP, breathe and let go.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to write and do self forgiveness about the emotion of anxiety, defeat, revenge.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize, and understand that building my vocabulary is indispensable to see the patterns of those addictions. That mean the more my vocabulary is built the more I can see the thoughts that may drive me to act on those addictions. So I can STIOP the thoughts. STOP the mind and BREATHE.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be self honest with those addictions. Brutal self honesty. meaning that I say I want to stop those addictions from the perspective of abuse and that it becomes a living-expression, then I give in at the primary moment where I can break-through and I go to the easy way. Say I want to stop those addictions and I go to the point where I cannot bear it anymore, I have to act on those addictions now – that’s the point of change, that’s where I stop. If I breathe through those points, that’s where I stop. Or, I  have a desire where thoughts come a lot about those addictions constantly, and I would like to act on those addictions; and I can’t help myself and it just drives me crazy – it is where I stop = where I can’t bear it anymore – where it becomes too much. That’s my point of Self-Honesty. That’s the point where I change. That’s where I have to breathe through it. That’s where breath is critical. That’s where I  stand and who I am as LIFE is developed. So I commit myself to self-honesty in that point. I commit myself to breathe through that point. I commit myself to stand and stop the mind and breathe in that point.

 I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand, that the starting point of all those addictions is the addiction of thinking. As whenever I forget to breath and I become the mind, the mind can guide me slowly and easily to those addictions. So I commit myself to be awareness of the breath and always STOP the mind until it become silent.

I commit myself to whenever I see images, read messages, listen to something that may trigger me to act on any abusif addiction, to stop and breathe and delete and let go the images, messages or audios. Not participating with those images, messages or audios in any kind.

I commit myself to investigate how I can control my dreams while I am sleep.

I commit myself to investigate the state of possession and how I can stop and get out from this state at the beginning of it.