Day 38 : I am not my thoughts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into knowledge and information about "I am not my thoughts," where it becomes a statement rather than an actual lived realization.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the difference between a statement and a living realization is that a statement is simply something that is said, whereas a living realization is something that is actively lived and expressed in my actions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the statement "I am not my thoughts" has no substance or reality because saying it alone does not mean it is true in my experience. A living realization of this statement involves actual self-change, where I can see, experience, and cross-reference that real change is taking place.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my cross-reference with a lived realization of "I am not my thoughts" would be my actual ability to stop thoughts without energy suppression, denial, or ignoring them. It involves standing in front of my thoughts, facing them, and acknowledging that they do not define me. The statement "I am not my thoughts" as mere knowledge and information becomes a mental pattern that does not truly assist or support me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that to bring about real change, I must walk the practical steps of becoming that change. Change requires actual participation through writing, speaking, and physically altering my behavior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself within my mind consciousness system to such an extent that I believe my experience of aloneness is who I am, leading to a struggle to do things my way.

In that realization, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and understand that this position is rooted in ego, where I attempt to prove something. In reality, my process of genuine change involves expanding my world and reality, sharing my process with others, and learning from them to face all parts of myself. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to utilize the available support to move faster within my process.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that conscious mind self-forgiveness serves as a platform for establishing myself physically and realizing that I am not my thoughts. It is not solely about writing out thoughts but rather about preparing for application. I can use self-forgiveness to support the process of establishing the living realization of "I am not my thoughts" by:

- Forgiving myself for believing that I am my thoughts.

- Forgiving myself for becoming preoccupied with my thoughts.

- Forgiving myself for following my thoughts instead of directing my actions within my world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that as thoughts emerge and run rampant, such as when I go to sleep and experience a rush of thoughts like multiple jack-in-the-boxes, this indicates an opportunity to apply self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my nighttime thoughts reflect how I participate throughout my day. They become more pronounced in the evening as I settle down to sleep, with my conscious mind still active.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand the opportunity to apply self-forgiveness when I go to sleep and to do it aloud for myself. Voicing self-forgiveness aloud establishes my presence in the physical, bringing me here immediately as an example of being self-directive.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to make a decision to stop participating in the mind and instead direct myself in the physical, making changes in the moment. As thoughts arise, I can say:

  - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to let these thoughts run rampant in my mind.

  - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed these thoughts to operate automatically without taking the initiative to stop them and direct myself to simply breathe, be present, and rest.

  - I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to breathe and be present with my body.

  - I forgive myself that I've allowed these thoughts to influence, control, and direct my experiences in the present moment.

  - I forgive myself that I have allowed these individual thoughts to exist in my mind and express themselves automatically without my active presence.

- I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that allowing these thoughts to run rampant gives them power over me.

  - I forgive myself that I haven't seen, realized, and understood that allowing each thought to come up implies that these thoughts have control and influence over who I am.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that a recurring pattern of conscious mind thoughts about something, such as a project or interaction with someone, indicates a subconscious and unconscious mind issue or personality being activated. This shows that I am activating personalities when I think about one thing and my mind races in various directions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when a specific thought pattern recurs, it indicates a subconscious and unconscious mind manifestation that requires attention. If I can't immediately address it, I will breathe, let the thoughts go, and apply self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that in my mind, I cannot directly solve or resolve issues from a point of automatic reaction. I must breathe, apply self-forgiveness, and address the underlying points later through writing or self-reflection.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my conscious mind thoughts are always related to my immediate environment, often concerning immediate events or future appointments. These thoughts indicate subconscious and unconscious mind personalities or issues I need to face within myself. My thoughts and reactions reveal unresolved parts within myself, replaying like a broken record until I face and address them.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my mind consciousness system is not evil or bad but simply shows me the parts of myself that require facing. It's a signal, a call for attention to direct and bring peace within myself and my world, rather than living in constant burdens and recreating past experiences.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to start my process from the conscious mind, especially before bed, as it is a prime time to observe my basic thought patterns. When recurring thought patterns arise, it indicates a subconscious and unconscious mind manifestation that requires attention. Throughout the day, if something repeatedly bothers me, it shows that I am activating a subconscious or unconscious mind personality, preparing to face a particular situation or individual.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in a reality where I prepare for future events through my mind consciousness system rather than trusting myself to live directly and handle situations in real-time, in breath, and in alignment with what is best for all.

**Self-Commitments:**

- I commit myself to transform the statement "I am not my thoughts" from mere knowledge into a living realization by actively stopping thoughts and taking responsibility for directing myself in each moment.

- I commit myself to use practical steps, including writing, speaking, and changing my behavior, to implement real change and live as my directive principle.

- I commit myself to share and expand my process with others, recognizing the support available and embracing a more inclusive approach to self-realization.

- I commit myself to observe and address my conscious mind thoughts, especially before bed, using self-forgiveness as a tool to establish presence and direct my actions in the physical.

- I commit myself to breathe and be present, allowing myself to disengage from automated thought patterns and focus on real-time self-direction.

- I commit myself to recognize and address recurring thought patterns as indicators of deeper subconscious and unconscious mind issues, taking steps to face and resolve these patterns.

- I commit myself to trust myself in real-time situations, living directly and applying principles of equality and oneness, rather than relying on the mind's preoccupations and preparations.