Day 42 : Annoyance when learning new things or facing challenges. Day 1 of 21
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react and participate in the energy of annoyance and irritation when and as I am learning new things or facing a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with the mind thoughts, backchats, emotions and feelings when and as I am learning new things or experiencing a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become annoyed with myself, in relation to attempting or trying new things or challenging things, and I had within myself already played out the entire process of my utmost potential in relation to learning a new thing or facing a particular challenge, but then when the moment came within reality, it's like the complete opposite manifested. So the consequence of such a relationship with myself and approaching new things or challenging things is that it lead to eventually believing that it is me that is the problem, and then superimposing such experiences unto myself, as well as then blaming learning new things and then challenges for why and how it is that such moments or situations play out, in the complete opposite or reverse of what I had initially intended, that that dynamic of blaming myself and also new things or challenging things lead me to the eventual point of just giving up and giving up before I have even started and therefore not in fact expand myself and my life within learning new things or facing and walking through challenges.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is me that is the problem and then blaming myself, blaming new things or challenge, and then giving up before I have even started and therefore not in fact expand myself and my life within learning new things or facing and walking through challenges.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see realize and understand why and how it is exactly that I can see a potential of myself within the mind projected into imaginations or playouts or daydreaming and why and how that is that it doesn't manifest exactly as it is into physical reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand what my or such projections and imaginations or playouts within myself reveal is a potential that I can become within and during my process of learning that something new or with facing and walking through a particular challenge.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that my mind consciousness system is essentially a multidimensional system that in some instances I use the mind most of the time to work against my awareness, my beingness, but there are instances where my mind utilize information and data that's existent within and as me to be able to communicate something about myself. So this particular context and it's only within this context where I am about to start learning something new and or am facing and walking through a challenge or a challenging time where before that what comes up within me is I see how I can take on this learning process or this particular challenge.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that there is a moment of how I on a beingness level use my mind to essentially communicate with myself, but now the problem is that my mind consciousness system does not exist in space and time. So therefore I don't realize that the projection that I am seeing within myself or the play out or the imagination is in fact containing potentials of what I can learn about myself of what I can discover and what I can learn once I have approached this learning gift or this challenge that I am approaching.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand how to translate these particular potentials that manifest in projections and imaginations and play outs.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand how and why is it possible that my beingness can communicate through the mind. How does it know that with approaching this new thing or this particular challenge that this and that can be discovered and uncovered and realized within and as self.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand the multi-dimensionality of my mind being and physical body relationship that when I am approaching something new or a particular challenge, what do I do immediately in a quantum moment?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that what happens in the mind is that it actually takes that learning opportunity or that challenge and it imprints it into consciousness or the mind, but this happens very fast so much so that I don't even or I am not even aware of how this is happening. So usually the mind consciousness system or my consciousness, owns the particular learning opportunity or challenge. Owns meaning it literally imprints it into a memory, takes that memory of what I am about to approach as learning or a challenge and then from there attaches to that memory all of my personalities and essentially scans through my entire mind and consciousness to be able to see what and where and how can my mind benefit by attaching certain personalities or thought patterns or reaction patterns or behavior patterns to this particular process of learning something new and or facing a challenge.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that this process happens in the unconscious, the quantum mind and the quantum physical, the layers and dimensions of the mind where my awareness is not yet equal to and one with and therefore not present. So I don't know that all of this is happening and because it's happening within deeper dimensions within the mind and within the body that's why I would for example get to the reality of the moment where I am about to learn something new and or face a challenge and it's like something overwhelms me and comes up within me from an unconscious quantum mind and quantum physical dimension and it is all of this that is essentially starting to work against me. Where suddenly I am becoming irritated very quickly and frustrated or where it's like what I am busy learning just doesn't want to sink in and I have all these thoughts and backchats to the person that's helping me or the material or the tools that I am busy working with and then the same with the challenge. The moment I am in it it's like all of these emotional reactions suddenly come up, my behavior starts changing and my thought patterns start interfering and I am kind of in the middle of that learning process or that challenge and it's like I ask myself, where does this come from? What's happening? This is not what I was seeing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that this happens because initially I didn't see, realize or understand how my mind, my consciousness was owning the particular learning process or challenge already before I in physical reality approached it attached everything and anything it could find to it so that I can work against myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to essentially have a relationship with the mind to work against me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and program my own relationship to the mind to work against my own awareness, our beingness, my utmost potential.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and understand that it's not the mind, meaning it's not the mind's fault. It is myself as the mind. It is the nature of what I had become as consciousness, therefore the absolute responsibility is within and myself.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand what happens in the unconscious, the quantum mind and the quantum physical dimensions so that the moment I physically are in the moment of starting to learn or walk into that challenge, everything physically activates of the mind and consciousness in what it had prepared to essentially activate within me so that I go into the mind instead of align me with my beingness, my awareness and physical body and walk in breath in every moment.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that because all of that happened in the underground, what happened at the same time is what I was more focused on in my conscious and subconscious mind was the projection that I was seeing, was the potential that I was seeing and so therefore, in my conscious subconscious mind because that projection or imagination and play out came up of wow who I am going to be and how I am going to be while I am learning and or facing this challenge, I then shifted only into looking at that projection or imagination and play out while all the while my consciousness was busy programming me in the unconscious quantum mind and quantum physical, therefore Why and how are these two points connected?
So I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that what the mind consciousness system allows is to when I am facing new things within my life things that are new and out of the ordinary or unpredictable my consciousness will allow my beingness to be calibrated in relation to that event to be able to see what potentials would arise if my beingness were to come through in that challenge or in that new event or the learning process. So therefore that's where the projections and imaginations and playouts come up. It's that moment where the consciousness goes, let's see what potentials would come through if this being's awareness was allowed to come through in this learning or this challenge and that is what my consciousness will also use to assess what does it need to bring up in the unconscious quantum mind and quantum physical to ensure that all of those potentials are suppressed.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself at this moment to more concentrate on the fact that consciousness is using my projected potentials against me and using my own personalities and thoughts and reactions against myself, instead of seing that this whole setup is beneficial to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that I can have a look at these projected potentials and imaginations and playouts that come up within me where instead of being distracted and only focusing on those projections and imaginations and playouts, I remind myself, wait a minute these are but potentials of what I can become if I walk through and see this particular learning process through. If I practically walk through and see this challenge through. In other words these potentials may only arise within me if I effectively apply myself within this process of learning something new and or walking through and facing this challenge.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to as I have changed my relationship to the projections and imaginations and playouts being an absolute and or essentially falling into the trap of distraction and preoccupation, I now only hold those projected potentials to the side and I realize that okay, my mind as I'm going to be walking this new thing as I'm going to be walking this challenge my mind is going to bring up all sorts of things for me to work against myself. So therefore I need to walk this learning process and this challenge in real time. I need to walk in an observer stance to see what is coming up in my unconscious. What is coming up from my quantum mind and quantum physical as personalities and thoughts and emotions and behavior patterns that I have not been aware of.
So therefore I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to use this whole system that the mind use to kind of suppress my potentials and work against me and use it to say come on mind bring it on. Let me see what I am going to be using here. What of myself in the deeper layers of my consciousness am I not yet aware of?
And then I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to as I am walking the learning process and or the particular challenge and I do have those thoughts coming up and those emotional reactions and I notice my behavior is changing I walk my real-time process of forgiveness. I forgive those thoughts immediately. I forgive those emotions. I change my behavior, my presence, my beingness. I stand within the statement of what I'm going to accept and allow and what not.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that I have a choice meaning am I going to assist and support myself to have a look at those projected potentials that came up and say to myself, that is what I want to discover and realize and learn about myself or am I going to fall into all the old patterns and habits and pre-programmings and systems of my mind or consciousness?
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to have a look at how the creators try to program and design the mind or consciousness to control but yet most of the time I actually see how much of it can be used to my benefit to actually assist and support me within my process. So therefore I don't want to blame the unconscious, the quantum mind or the quantum physical. I don't want to approach it with any resistance or judgment or fear. I essentially want to walk in real time, face that learning process and that challenge in every moment of breath and when things come up, I direct it, I deal with it and I constantly remind myself, okay, remember the potentials, remember what I can learn about myself, discover about myself, see about myself. That's what I want to know. I already know where all of these things in my mind is going to lead me toward but the unexpected and surprise of myself is going to emerge if I allow myself to let go of the pre-programming and the consciousness that's involved.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to have a look at memories of where I had faced something new or a particular challenge. It can be in my outside world or in my inside world, meaning I will find sometimes with my own mind I am learning new things or facing challenges. So where within that have seen my potential of what I can be and become and change into? And what was it within my mind and my behavior that came up that caused me to give up and give in? Has there been anything that has been postponed within relation to it being challenging or learning something new?
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand What is the potential that I have seen if I would have done it or would do it? And as I am doing it, what is coming up inside me? And write this out as specifically as possible for myself. And see what is coming up from my unconscious, my quantum mind, my quantum physical. Go fishing.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that I have got the hook and I've got the bait, which is Me and the walking of the real-time process. Because that as I am going to be physically walking it, these things are going to be coming up. So I let them come up and catch them, catch the meaning, write them out, identify them. What's the thoughts and the backchats and emotions that is attempting to or trying to work against me and suppress my utmost potential?
I commit myself to look at memories of where I had faced something new or a particular challenge. And see where within that have seen my potential of what I can be and become and change into? And what was it within my mind and my behavior that came up that caused me to give up and give in? Has there been anything that has been postponed within relation to it being challenging or learning something new?
What is the potential that I have seen if I would have done it or would do it? And as I am doing it, what is coming up inside me? And I commit myself to to write this out as specifically as possible for myself. To see what is coming up from my unconscious, my quantum mind, my quantum physical. To go fishing
I commit myself to align me with my beingness, my awareness and physical body and walk in breath in every moment, and not go into the mind when learning new things or facing a challenge.
I commit myself to as I am walking the learning process and or the particular challenge and I do have those thoughts coming up and those emotional reactions and I notice my behavior is changing I walk my real-time process of forgiveness. I forgive those thoughts immediately. I forgive those emotions. I change my behavior, my presence, my beingness. I stand within the statement of what I'm going to accept and allow and what not.
I commit myself to walk in real time, face that learning process and that challenge in every moment of breath and when things come up, I direct it, I deal with it and I constantly remind myself, okay, remember the potentials, remember what I can learn about myself, discover about myself, see about myself. That's what I want to know. I already know where all of these things in my mind is going to lead me toward but the unexpected and surprise of myself is going to emerge if I allow myself to let go of the pre-programming and the consciousness that's involved.
I commit myself to walking of the real-time process. Because that as I am going to be physically walking it, these things are going to be coming up. So I let them come up and catch them, catch the meaning, write them out, identify them.
What's the thoughts and the backchats and emotions that is attempting to or trying to work against me and suppress my utmost potential?
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