Day 45 : Annoyance the gifts. Day 4 of 21.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to walk all the four  dimensions of annoyance, the first being self-annoyance, the second being when the emotional annoyance comes up in relation to another, third being annoyance when I am in a situation within a job where I do not have the authority or the power to speak up or even change the inter-office relationships or dynamics and structure of an entire business or company, and then the fourth being the dimension where I walk my process and I take a moment of change as an absolute and then project it onto and towards future change instead of realizing that change I have to walk moment by moment and day by day, meaning when I face a moment of change it's like to accept the change and embrace the change yet at the same time be prepared for an absolutely new moment of change or realizations, not to carry a change onto the next moment or the next day.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see and have a look of the gifts with these four dimensions in relation to annoyance  that will emerge, the self-expression within myself that will manifest with assisting and supporting myself to transcend these four dimensions of annoyance, and also to understand that within these or such instances that I had walked in relation to annoyance is that with any given situation like for example where I had walked when I'm learning something new or approaching a challenge, annoyance is one of the dimensions or emotions that I can face within such situations, the same with reactions toward others, annoyance is but one dimension, the same with being in a situation at a job where I feel disempowered, the same with projecting change onto the next day or future moments.

 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand how the mind consciousness system is structured and that it's got layered dimensions, layered emotions, layered programs existent within one situation or moment or experience that I can face within physical reality, because in physical reality it's all very structured, very routinized, in other words there is not a lot of or many varying situations or experiences or moments I can face in physical reality, because everything is so solid, structured, manifested, and if I also have a look at my day in and day out routine it's mostly the same, the same time frames, the same people, the same buildings, the same path that I walk,  I can for myself map out my day-to-day living experience, now and then may go on vacation or holiday or do something different but the majority of my life experience is the same, and it is this sameness that is contributing to my mind having to pattern from within my consciousness a varying degree of emotions or personalities and programs and constructs in relation to the sameness that I face within my day-to-day living experience, because from my mind consciousness system perspective because it exists in in quantum time and in a way a timelessness it can within that quantify an exceptional amount of programs and systems and constructs and reactions and personalities in relation to the same things that I'll be facing day in and day out.

 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that mind consciousness system was not going to make process easy for me like with for example facing something new or or a challenge  it didn't just pre-program within my consciousness that the only thing that I need to transcend when I'm facing something I'm challenges is annoyance it is like for example right now in front of me see like  I get those I get file cabinets and I've got all the files stacked into one one row this is exactly how programs and dimensions and systems are neatly filed in a row and then compressed inside of my mind and physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that was walking this point of annoyance in relation to facing something new or challenges in relation to reaction to others in relation to authority and disempowerment in relation to projecting change from one day on to the next that's facing annoyance in these four areas of my life is like opening a file cabinet and taking out one of those files opening it up for myself reading through it understanding it. I can essentially visualize it for myself as having one of those file cabinets and opening up the the files now those files all represent  a particular dimension within one given situation.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand  where I'm facing something new or facing a challenge so on one of those file cabinets I'm opening it up on the front is written facing something new or facing a challenge and in there there's a lot of files because there could be a lot of dimensions a lot of programs and systems and reactions and things that I can open up for myself in my own mind in relation to facing something new or a particular challenge. So then I'm now opening up that file cabinet and I'm taking out the first file written on their annoyance when facing something new or facing a challenge so there I'm opening it up.

 


 


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and have a look at the gifts the expressions that will emerge within myself as expressions that I will self-realize with living and applying the change of this dimension of annoyance within the four contexts that I've been walking.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand  the expressions that will emerge in relation to self-annoyance and see that this will be more expansive because my self-annoyance is also more coming from a beingness response to seeing my potential but it's like my whole mind is working against me from reaching that potential.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that through transcending self-annoyance when I'm learning something new or facing a challenge is that I will be able to really live into the potentials that I can see and that I can feel within myself. It's fascinating how I  want that something more but for myself and my life but I never give it to myself so the giving existence is not just going to give you gifts but I have to do it and the doing means applying means putting in the time and the effort.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to really make facing something new or doing something new learning something new and challenges see it as a door.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see Immediately the most practical way to approach difficult things is to see a door right in front of me  and say right this time i'm going to walk through this door because i want to see what potential I can realize about myself and  it might be simple things something simple as  when I'm learning something new and beforehand I'm like I could never see myself doing this but then I actually start I'm like wow  i'm actually better at this than I thought I could ever be there will um what will emerge is like surprises I think that is one of the most exciting things about this process as well is I don't know what to expect because I've never done it before so the whole experience will be more like a surprise. How can i surprise myself with walking through this annoyance and  walking through whatever it is in my mind that is trying to prevent me from reaching my utmost potential.

 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand the self-expression that will emerge in my relationship with others where I tend to become annoyed with another person is an intimacy and a depth can emerge in my relationship with another in expanding my worldview if I will to incorporate another's world in other words where I use the example in relation to annoyance  when living with someone and they do things a certain way and I do things another way and now it's like two worlds or two histories two cultures or  a lot of past information that's clashing but what new world will the two of me be able to create with finding compromises if I will in other words aligning how I do things and how the other do things and how we can merge it together  where can both change in some way or another for us to create a new world together and that actually becomes a foundation where  I will start approaching people and and moments and environments not in the way of imposing only my world or my will but rather what is my world what's your world what new world can we create because this is a very important point  we're not going to be able to create a new humanity or a new earth if we're all not willing to essentially let go of the old and create the new. seeing  what are the similarities and what are the differences how can the similarities be strengthened and how can the differences be aligned in such a way that would be best for both.

 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that within that it will allow me to invite more people into my world into my life and not be afraid of them imposing or attacking or changing or anything like that because I'm always the directive principle of change of inviting something new or someone new of looking at what is the situation what's the environment what's the relationship and how can we best align this environment and relationship that's best for both .

 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see the third dimension which is the power and authority where I become annoyed because of my particular hierarchical position in a business or company. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that that  within this the expression that will emerge is essentially assisting and supporting me to not try and fight the system it will allow me to move myself into a humble position  in the sense of okay  this is how this ironclad system is structured as of now but I can already see the problems and consequences that are existent and that manifest and therefore it'll in that humbleness give me or allow me to take a step back to observe  what is really going on in the system what is it really made up of to be able to prepare myself for any future moments or situations or positions where I will be able to speak up or direct moments and situations and people in the work environment . So that just allows me to not go into and fall into that rebellious attacking fighting wanting change in that way but rather realize how change has to come with time and especially patience I kind of have to wait for the moments to open up where I can speak up and take directive principle.

 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that within projecting change into the next day or the future  where I changed in one moment and then I went i'm changed i'm done i've absolutely transcended this point now this is again in the example of the the filings and file cabinet where I believe that one cabinet of for example facing a family member that there was only this one file in there and it was called annoyance in relation to a family member that's the perception that the mind can create when in fact there were a lot of other files within and behind that one file and then I took only that one file and now I said i love this family member no more reactions at all but then the next day up came the reactions and back came the programs and everything else obviously new things but um because you now held on to the past moment of change you couldn't see the potential of more change and new change that now opened up with more thoughts and reactions coming up for example.

 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that that there within these particular situations the expression that will emerge is actually accumulating more change within myself and my process meaning accumulating more change is if I align myself with the reality of how change works that if I change in relation to one file that that will bring the next file to the forefront automatically so then I take that one file that I transcended I place it into my memories of i've done this i've changed this but okay now i walk into the next moment the next day what's next that should be my approach always what's next what's my next change what's my next realization what's my next potential that i can materialize or embody or manifest it shouldn't be okay i'm done nothing more thank you very much okay so that will assist and support you to take that approach to change always when a moment of change manifests you can accept it be grateful for it you know this is great i've got this point of change now i'm ready for the next.

 
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that one of the the primary gifts within this entire process that I've walked thus far is that realization of how the mind files dimensions how change really works in the physical so that I don't unnecessarily become annoyed with myself while I'm walking process