Day 52 : Giving up part 6. Day 11 of 21.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to discover about myself with assisting and supporting myself to transcend and change my relationship to giving up. Now, what I will find fascinating about the giving up process and experience is that its context within how it activates within myself  is always the same, meaning it follows exactly the same pattern because it is a program that had been pre-programmed within my mind consciousness system. So even though I may face different challenges and problems within my external world or my internal world, the giving up process and experience from activation to implementation is equal and one and the same. 


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to  have a look at this particular point the following way, that for example I  has a lifetime of facing challenges and problems in my  mind or in my world and every single time I give up. The process started in the first phase where my mind turns myself against me, the thoughts start coming and the backchats start coming and the emotional reactions manifest and then from the mind being pulled into the second phase of the physical experience of y validating and justifying and excusing why and how it is that I cannot push through or make it through or change my relationship to the challenge and the problem until it all accumulates and my consciousness has successfully pulled my beingness in the mind and body into the black hole and there I had essentially given up on myself and completely given into my mind consciousness system. Now that same process happens over and over and over again. 


Now within envisioning this I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand  that I am falling down the same hole every single time where the illusion that the mind consciousness system creates is that I am  walking down a different road and there's a different hole inside that road and the scenery looks different right as for example when I have a problem or a challenge the problem and challenge itself looks very different every time I meet up with it as time passes throughout my life but what is not seen is for me to look beyond the scenery for me to realize but a road is a road a hole is a hole whether it looks different the looking doesn't change the fact of what it is 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand within my lifetime if I want to envision walking a life being that I'm walking down a path and there's obviously a lot of different detours and turning lefts and rights and facing forks and making decisions of whether I'm going to go down the left road or the right road so within this I am then walking my life on this road and in every single road there are holes deep dark holes and instead of confronting my relationship to them in terms of developing solutions and harnessing the skills to develop solutions and essentially change and evolve and expand and develop and grow myself I literally walk down every single road and fall into the same hole and then eventually kind of make my way out of the hole and then start walking again and then I am in a different path on different scenery different type of shaped hole but then again I fall down that hole. That essentially always leads me down the same road the same path the same end if I will with assisting and supporting myself to transcend giving up where I do not accept and allow myself to give up here I am going to find that I will learn so much more about myself that even though I'm facing a different problem or challenge I'm not going to accept and allow myself to fall into and as the same hole the same giving up process reaching the exact same end.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that the end all that ever happened within my life if I give up is that I learned how to give up I developed an exceptional skill of giving up and giving up very easily so essentially I can come to the end of my life and have a piece of paper what did i learn about myself giving up. And I don't want to have that resume at the end of my life or when I'm entering into the next phase or stage of my existence I would want to have a look at having an exceptional list that I can be proud of what it is that I learned about myself and discovered about myself and essentially harnessed within this lifetime that I myself did for myself


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