Day 57 : Facing Insecurity toward job interview preparation. Day 16 of 21.

I started my day at 7:30 AM, planning to have the perfect day. I began by walking near the sea and simultaneously writing self-forgiveness. After that, I read a blog, did the Wim Hof breathing technique, and took a cold shower. I then had breakfast and started preparing for my job interview. While preparing, I suddenly felt a resistance to continue. This resistance might have been due to underlying feelings of self-doubt or fear of failure. To escape these uncomfortable emotions, I found myself switching to playing games and chatting, which are activities I’ve been addicted to in the past. I’m still trying to understand the exact emotions and energy that triggered this switch.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel resistance while preparing for my interview.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with self-doubt about preparing for my job interview.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with the emotion of fear of failure toward my job interview preparation.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand what the exact emotions are that trigger this switch to play games and chatting.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand that insecurity was activated within me as a mind construct and with this mind construct comes a lot of emotions and backchats like: doubt, fear, excitement, desire, and  urge. Thoughts like: "Let's play one game," "Oh, lets respond this person...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to escape those emotions and backchats with playing games and chatting 

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to write about those emotions and insecurity and apply self-forgiveness on them.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand that I have insecurity towards preparing for my job interview.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to apply what I have learned from the Atlanteans about insecurity on the subject of VLSI job interview preparation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel insecure about my job interview, believing that I am not capable or qualified enough, and thus allowing fear of judgment and failure to influence my preparation and performance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto fears of not being good enough or being judged negatively during the job interview, manifesting a sense of inferiority and inadequacy in my interactions and responses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the prospect of a job interview with anxiety and insecurity, rather than acknowledging that these fears are constructs of my mind and not reflections of my actual abilities or worth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my self confidence and self-trust by focusing on potential negative outcomes and fears, instead of embracing and relying on my preparation and skills.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown aspects of the job interview, choosing to remain within the confines of what I already know instead of embracing the potential for new experiences and self-discovery.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the fear of the unknown create a barrier between me and my true self-expression during the interview preparation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself unfavorably to others and judge my worth based on perceived shortcomings or differences, leading to insecurity about my abilities and qualifications.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior or unprepared compared to others, instead of recognizing and valuing my own unique qualities and experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tense up, clench my fists, or show physical signs of discomfort during the interview preparation due to my insecurity, instead of being comfortable and relaxed in my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my physical body respond to insecurity with reactions such as a tight chest or stuttering speech, rather than maintaining a calm and stable presence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to channel all fears and insecurities into a single moment of overwhelming stress, instead of addressing each fear and reaction individually and calmly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my mind construct an overarching insecurity system that amplifies my fears and anxieties about the interview.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rely too heavily on accumulating knowledge and information about self-confidence before practically applying it, as I see, realize, and understand that true self-confidence comes from living it in real-time, rather than merely understanding it intellectually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing exactly how I will be in a self-confident state during the interview, as I see, realize, and understand that the process of becoming self-confident involves discovering and expressing it through practical application, not through preconceived notions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist the process of change by wanting to have everything figured out beforehand, as I see, realize, and understand that change is a continuous process of applying and adjusting in real-time, not just a mental exercise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impose mental constructs and projections of confidence and insecurity on my actual experiences, as I see, realize, and understand that these constructs are not reflective of the real-time process of living and applying self-confidence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable with applying self-confidence in real-time situations like preparing to my interview, as I see, realize, and understand that discomfort is part of the process of real-time change and that I can stabilize myself through consistent practice and application.

I commit myself to breathing and rather writing and applying self-forgiveness than escaping with playing games, chatting  or any thing else, when facing a mind construct as insecurity or any energy or emotions or thoughts and backchats.

I commit myself to prepare for my job interview with the understanding that my feelings of insecurity are mind constructs and not reflective of my true capabilities or value. I commit myself to focus on my physical nature of being self-confident without any energy being here as Life. 

I commit myself to recognize and write the fears and judgments that arise during my preparation, and introspect them and write self forgiveness about them later. 

I commit myself to practice self-compassion and self-trust by acknowledging that feeling insecure is part of the process, but it does not define my worth or abilities. I will approach the interview preparation with a calmness and physical stability, knowing that I am capable.

I commit myself to actively observe and correct any patterns of insecurity or self-doubt that arise during my interview preparation.

I commit myself  to approach the unknown aspects of my job interview with curiosity and openness, recognizing that every new experience is an opportunity for growth and self-expression.

I commit myself to transform my relationship with the unknown from one of fear to one of natural self-confidence and potential, using it as a blank slate to create and establish my best self.

I commit myself to four count breath  rather than comparing myself to others.

I commit myself to be aware of my physical responses to insecurity and to consciously practice relaxation techniques to maintain physical stability and calm during the interview preparation and the actual interview.

I commit myself to address and correct any physical signs of insecurity, such as tense muscles or nervous habits, by practicing deep breathing and staying present in my body.

I commit myself to observe my thoughts and reactions with clarity and without judgment, and to apply self-forgiveness when I notice any patterns of insecurity or self-doubt.

I commit myself to address and transform any limiting beliefs or projections that arise during interview preparation, by redirecting my focus to four count breath forgiving those limiting beliefs and projections withing the infinite moment between the in and out breath.

I commit myself to give myself time and patience to work through any feelings of insecurity and to practice the necessary techniques for transcend these challenges in a balanced and gentle manner.

I commit myself to consistently apply these self-forgiveness and self-commitment statements, and to remain open to learn and grow from each experience related to insecurity.

I commit myself to apply self-confidence in the practical moment-to-moment interactions of my interview preparation, understanding that real self-confidence emerges from this practical application rather than preemptive knowledge or theoretical understanding.

I commit myself to embrace the unknown aspects of how I will express self-confidence during the preparation or the interview, acknowledging that my understanding will deepen through direct experience rather than through pre-planning or mental projections.

I commit myself to adjust and correct my expression of self-confidence in real-time during the preparation and the interview, using moments of insecurity as opportunities to practice self-forgiveness and self-correction, ensuring that I remain stable and consistent.

I commit myself to expressing self-confidence directly in the preparation and the  interview, focusing on practical steps such as stabilizing my voice and body language, rather than getting caught up in mental constructs or projections of how I should be.

I commit myself to balance my approach to change by acknowledging that both the insecurity and confidence as an experience of energy exist on the same baseline, applying practical tools of self-forgiveness and self-correction without creating undue polarity.

I commit myself to practice self-confidence continuously, using every interaction and feedback as a stepping stone for growth, rather than seeing each moment as a final test of my capabilities.

I commit myself to apply self-forgiveness and corrective actions immediately when moments of insecurity arise, understanding that real change happens through consistent and practical application rather than theoretical preparation.