Day 60 : Dealing with tension in my solar plexus. Day 19 of 21.

 I woke up feeling tension in my solar plexus and had thoughts about playing games and chatting  and just scrolling in social media. This tension seems to block me from doing what is best for me. I've had this pattern since I was young, possibly due to addiction. Normally, I do vocabulary exercises after waking up, which helps clear my mind.

I want to quantify the energy and emotion in my solar plexus. It might be anxiety, excitement, desire, or insecurity. To identify it, I can focus on the tension and consider each emotion one by one: anxiety (worry or nervousness), excitement (anticipation), desire (strong craving), and insecurity (doubts or fears about myself).


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with tension inside my solar plexus

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and participate with thoughts about playing games, chatting and scrolling in social media.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this tension inside my solar plexus to block me from doing my vocabulary builder.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use gaming, chatting and scrolling in social media to escape negative emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in insecurity that is coming from doubt and fear that I start my day perfectly but I fall and give up after.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not write about this fear of failures and fear of giving up on myself that activate insecurity about doing what is best for me.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand what specific needs or emotions I might be trying to fulfill when I feel this tension and urge to gaming, chatting  or scrolling in social media.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand what these urges might be covering up or distracting me from? Is there any specific fear, anxiety, or stress I often face that I might be avoiding?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear failure and fear falling in my old addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing fear of failure to influence my actions and thoughts. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that this fear often prevents me from fully committing to what is best for me. It manifests as insecurity and doubt, especially after starting my day stable in the physical with vocabulary exercises.

I forgive myself for not  accepting and allowing myself to address this fear in my writing and self-forgiveness, which could help alleviate its hold over me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing fear of falling into  addiction to linger in my thoughts and emotions. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that this fear stems from past experiences and patterns that have been challenging to break. It creates a cycle where the urge to engage in addictions becomes a way to escape negative emotions and stressors.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and fully understanding the specific needs or emotions underlying these urges. I forgive myself for not seeing that by not addressing these deeper feelings, I allow them to persist and influence my actions negatively.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to acknowledge that these urges of  addictions may be covering up deeper anxieties or stresses in my life that I am trying to avoid.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to breathe, deep breathing into those emotions and urges I am feeling, stop, and breathe out slowly, letting go of those emotions and urges.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to continue breathing and slowing down even if the emotions become more intense. Simply breathe and start doing my vocabulary and what is best for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel overwhelmed by my emotions instead of using deep breathing to center and calm myself. By doing so, I can better understand and address the underlying needs and emotions that drive my urges.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see and recognize that breathing and staying present can help me manage my urges and reduce the tension in my solar plexus.

I commit myself to continue deep and slow breathing, being aware of my breathing and physical experience in my body. Acknowledging those emotions and urges but not acting on them. Instead moving myself physically by doing my vocabulary or go for a walk doing what is best for me.



I commit myself to value and care for my physical body, recognizing its limits and needs, and to not let the demands of the ego lead me to neglect or harm it.

I commit myself to stay mindful of the ego’s transient nature and to focus on actions that support my well-being and true self, rather than feeding the insatiable desires of the ego.

I commit myself to practice mindfulness daily; meaning breathing and stopping the mind each moment  to observe and understand the emotions underlying my urges.

I commit myself to write about my fears, doubts, and insecurities as they arise, exploring their roots and finding ways to address them.

I commit myself to plan my perfect day and work my plan every day.

I commit myself to incorporate regular physical exercise into my routine, recognizing its importance for my mental well-being.

I commit myself to practice self-compassion, acknowledging my efforts and progress without harsh self-criticism.