Day 63 : Facing my fears of failure and giving up.

Sometimes, I experience this fear of failure and fear of giving up. It manifests as a strong energy in my solar plexus, and this fear activates within me the urge for all my old addictions. Before this overwhelming fear sets in, I often experience doubts about my ability to stay standing and not fall back into these addictions. These doubts make me feel insecure and question my resilience and strength.

Self-Forgiveness:




I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with fear of failure and fear of giving up into old addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt my ability to stand within my physical body stable and aware of my breath and not falling into old addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts that doubt my ability to always stay standing and not falling or giving up on old addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed these doubts to make me feel insecure and question my resilience and strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the fear of giving up and fear of failure to control my physical body by activating the urges for old addictions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, realize, and understand what is the source and the initial construct of this fear, and how this construct is manifested in my physical body and in my mind, my conscious, subconscious, and unconscious mind.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that the fear of failure often stems from past experiences where I felt judged or criticized for not meeting expectations.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing these past experiences to define my current self-worth and abilities.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that the fear of failure is constructed from beliefs that my value is tied to my achievements and that making mistakes makes me less worthy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that my value is tied to my achievements and that making mistakes makes me less worthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept societal and cultural pressures that equate success with personal value and for not questioning these beliefs.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that the fear of failure is fueled by thoughts of inadequacy and fear of judgment from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inadequate and unable to deal with my old addictions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to internalize others' expectations and for using them as a measure of my self-worth.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that the fear of failure is connected to a need for control and certainty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want control and certainty, living in separation from these qualities and thinking that I don't have these. Instead of being here stable with my physical body and my breath, knowing that I as the beingness being fully aware and here with the physical, I can deal with any situation and anything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the fear of the unknown and the need for perfection to dictate my actions and decisions.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and acknowledge that the fear of failure can also be a protective mechanism, trying to prevent me from experiencing pain or disappointment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear pain and disappointment of failure and giving up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fee pain and disappointment when falling in old addictions.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand  that by facing this fear of failureand givingup, I can learn and grow stronger.

 

Self-Commitment:

 

I commit myself to, when and as I see myself experiencing fear of failure or fear of giving up, to stop and breathe, and not allow myself to participate in these emotions or thoughts of fear. And move myself to do what is really best for me, focusing on the present moment and my breath.

I commit myself to explore and understand more deeply the roots and constructs of this fear, so I can dismantle it and free myself from its influence.

I commit myself to be compassionate and patient with myself as I navigate through these fears.

I commit myself to remind myself that my value is not determined by my successes or failures, but by my persistence and willingness to grow and learn.

I commit myself to embrace mistakes as opportunities for growth rather than seeing them as reflections of my worth.

I commit myself to seek support and resources when I feel overwhelmed by these fears, understanding that I don't have to face them alone.

I commit myself to celebrate my progress and acknowledge my strengths, even in small steps.

I commit myself to stop and breathe and not participate with the thoughts of doubt, stabilizing myself with the physical and acknowledging that I am here I am here I am here. And forgiving these thoughts.

I commit myself to stay grounded in my physical body, aware of my breath, and centered in the present moment.