Day 73 : Counting days off old addictions

 I've observed that my mind always counts the days when I don't fall into addictions. It feels like a trick of the mind to remind me of the addictions, making me think about them more often. This constant reminder can be frustrating and seems to draw my focus back to what I'm trying to avoid. I'm not sure how to address these particular thoughts or how to get rid of them. It feels like a cycle where the more I try not to think about the addiction, the more it comes to mind because of the day count.

I wonder what the source of these thoughts is. It seems like my mind is using this counting as a way to keep the addiction present, almost like it's trying to sabotage my efforts. Perhaps it's a form of fear or insecurity, afraid of truly letting go of the addiction. Or maybe it's a habit, ingrained from years of giving in to these urges. Understanding the source might help me find a way to break free from this cycle.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to count the days when I am off the addictions.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize and understand why my mind keeps counting the days when I am off the addiction.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize and understand what the source of all the emotions behind this counting of the days is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get frustrated with myself for these thoughts, instead of being patient and compassionate with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let the counting of days feed into the cycle of thinking about the addiction.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that this is my mind's way of clinging to old patterns, and that I have the power to change this.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sometimes feel proud of the days I have stayed away from the addiction. Not seeing that feeling proud is an energy created by the mind to trap me in my mind control.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to fully understand that letting go of this counting can help me break free from the cycle of addiction thoughts.

I commit myself to win, and as I see myself counting the days when I am off the addiction, I will stop, breathe, and not participate in these thoughts, focusing instead on what I am doing in the present moment.

I commit myself to be patient with myself and to recognize my progress and growth.

I commit myself to clean and clear all those thoughts by writing self-forgiveness about the thoughts that remind me of the addictions.

I commit myself to understanding the emotions behind these thoughts, giving myself the space to explore and heal from them.

I commit myself to creating new, positive habits that replace the old patterns associated with the addiction.

I commit myself to being compassionate with myself when these thoughts arise, seeing them as an opportunity to practice self-forgiveness and growth.

I commit myself to celebrating my successes, no matter how small, and to acknowledge the effort I am putting into transcending these challenges.

I commit myself to seeking support when needed, knowing that it's okay to ask for help on this journey.