Day 74 : Letting Go of the Automation of Separation Through Sex

Listen to What is sex part 4 for context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that consciousness is separate from who I am, creating a false sense of separation from reality and my true self. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that consciousness is an entity on its own, independent of my being, thereby disempowering myself and relinquishing responsibility for my experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive reality solely through the lens of consciousness, focusing only on its manifestations without investigating the underlying constructs, systems, and patterns that influence my experience. I forgive myself for neglecting to see the totality of reality, thereby limiting my understanding and awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by the mind consciousness system, reacting automatically to situations instead of directing myself with awareness and intention. I forgive myself for allowing the mind to dictate my actions and decisions, instead of standing as the directive principle of my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to oscillate between the evolution and devolution of consciousness, being swayed by the changing tides of thought, emotion, and sensation. I forgive myself for not standing firm in my true self, allowing external and internal fluctuations to dictate my state of being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the desire for physical sensations and experiences, particularly in relation to sex. I forgive myself for allowing these desires to dictate my actions and decisions, rather than approaching such experiences with clarity and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and sustain personality systems within the unified mind, identifying with these roles and masks rather than embracing my authentic self. I forgive myself for allowing these constructs to govern my interactions and relationships, limiting my ability to connect genuinely with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be attached to the illusion of physical reality as solid and permanent, forgetting that all experiences are transient and subject to change. I forgive myself for holding onto the belief that things must remain the same, thereby resisting change and growth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be entangled in the gridline structures and the universal mind, perpetuating the experience of separation and disconnection from the whole. I forgive myself for not recognizing my interconnectedness with all life and the responsibility that comes with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the interconnected systems of beliefs, thoughts, emotions, and behaviors that have solidified the experience of separation within myself. I forgive myself for not questioning these systems and allowing them to define my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to relinquish my self-directive power, giving control over to the mind consciousness system and external influences. I forgive myself for not standing as the authority in my life, allowing automatic patterns and reactions to dictate my actions.

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Self-Commitment Statements:

I commit myself to recognizing that consciousness is not separate from who I am, and to living from the awareness that I am not my thoughts, feelings, or emotions, but the directive principle of my existence. I will actively challenge any belief that perpetuates the illusion of separation from my true self and others.

I commit myself to deepening my understanding of reality beyond mere appearances, by exploring the constructs, systems, and patterns that influence my experience. I will cultivate a mindset of curiosity and critical inquiry, refusing to accept things at face value.

I commit myself to dismantling the programmed responses of the mind consciousness system, choosing instead to respond to life from a place of clarity, self-awareness, and deliberate action. I will practice mindfulness and self-reflection to become aware of automated patterns and replace them with self-directed choices.

I commit myself to consistently embodying my true self, free from the oscillations of the evolution and devolution of consciousness. I will strive to maintain stability and authenticity in my thoughts, words, and actions, regardless of external circumstances.

I commit myself to exploring and understanding the motivations behind my actions, particularly in relation to sex and physical sensations. I will seek to address and transform any underlying desires or fears, and to engage in relationships and experiences from a place of genuine connection and self-honesty.

I commit myself to deconstructing the personality systems I have created within the unified mind, recognizing that these roles and identities are not who I truly am. I will embrace my authentic self and interact with others from a place of honesty, openness, equality, and oneness.

I commit myself to acknowledging the transient nature of physical reality and my capacity to create change. I will release attachment to the illusion of solidity and permanence, and embrace the fluidity and potential for transformation in every moment.

I commit myself to disentangling myself from the gridline structures and universal mind that perpetuate separation. I will actively seek to align myself with principles of oneness and equality, recognizing the interconnectedness of all life and acting in ways that honor this truth.

I commit myself to breaking down the interconnected systems of beliefs, thoughts, emotions, and behaviors that have solidified the experience of separation. I will take responsibility for my own experience and actively work to create a more unified and integrated sense of self.

I commit myself to reclaiming my self-directive power, no longer allowing the mind consciousness system to control my life and experiences. I will practice self-discipline and self directive  decision-making, ensuring that my actions are aligned with what us best for all life.