Radouane's Journey to Life

For a long time, I used social media as more than a tool. It became a mirror, a stage, and sometimes — a trap. I wanted people to see me. To admire me. To validate who I believed I was — or who I wanted them to think I was. But the more I posted, the more I realized I wasn’t expressing myself freely… I was curating myself. And with every like or view, I was feeding an image, not my real self. 💬 Self-Forgiveness Statements: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and believe in a self-image on social media — a mental picture of who I think I should be — instead of walking moment by moment in breath, as who I really am in the physical. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust an image more than breath , using social media to build and protect that image, rather than stopping it and discovering who I am without it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to be seen in a certain ...

  For years, the emotion of regret held me hostage. Whether it was regrets about past choices, sexual energy experiences, missed opportunities, or moments where I betrayed my integrity — it was like a weight I couldn't drop. But through walking with TechnoTutor , self-forgiveness , and daily breathing awareness, I realized: Regret is not punishment. It is a message from the past — asking to be faced, understood, and finally released . 🔎 What is Regret? Regret is the emotional consequence of judging ourselves for the past — feeling that we should have acted differently, been better, more in control, or more aware. But as I dug deeper, I saw that regret was often just a loop: Regret → Shame → Addiction behavior → More regret So I decided to interrupt that cycle with self-honesty. 🧭 Self-Forgiveness Statements on Regret Here are some of the self-forgiveness statements I walked. I share them here for anyone also carrying this heavy emotion: I forgive myself that I ...

While jogging today, I noticed a familiar pattern in my mind. As I passed people or vehicles, my mind automatically started imagining what others were thinking or saying about me. It created stories like:  “They think I look good,”  or  “They’re judging me.”  These thoughts came with a mix of feelings — sometimes pride, sometimes insecurity. It’s as if my mind constantly scans for attention, validation, or some imagined threat of judgment. I also noticed how easily these thoughts shift into comparison — better than, less than — and how much energy I spend living in those projections instead of being here, in my body, breathing. But I’ve been walking a process of self-forgiveness and awareness, and I see now: this pattern doesn’t define me. I have the power to stop it, to breathe, and return to who I really am — not a performance, not a projection, but presence. 🔄 Self-Forgiveness Statements I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysel...

For many years, I carried shame like a silent companion — heavy, invisible, but always close. Shame shaped how I saw myself, how I interacted with others, and how I reacted to the challenges of life. It was one of the most difficult emotions to face, because it told me: “There’s something wrong with you.” “You’re broken.” “You’ll never change.” Through working with Desteni I Process and TechnoTutor , I began writing out the layers of shame. What I found surprised me: Shame wasn’t a punishment. It was a signal — that I was believing something about myself that wasn't actually true. It was a sign that I was ready to change. Here are some of the self-forgiveness statements I wrote: 🔹 Self-Forgiveness on Shame I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through the emotion of shame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am flawed and unworthy because of past mistakes. I forgive myself that I have acce...

 I’m Starting Again It’s been months since I posted here. I’ve wanted to come back many times, but there was always a voice in my mind: “You’re not ready. You’ve failed. People will judge you.” But today I choose something different. I choose to show up as I am — not perfect, not finished, but  real . I’ve Walked Through Patterns Emotional patterns. Addictions. Highs and lows. Moments of strength — and moments of giving up. But even in the darkest times, a part of me was still breathing, still watching, still wanting to understand. Still choosing to continue. What Changed? Lately, I realized something: I don’t need to be perfect to write. Writing is how I support myself. It helps me see what I’ve accepted and allowed — and what I can change. This blog is not about showing success. It’s about  showing up , again and again, as I walk my process. Self-Forgiveness I’m Living Now I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myse...