Day 102 : From Intimidation to Equality: Reclaiming My Presence in Front of Authority


Yesterday, during my day of work, something very simple yet very powerful happened.
I called a prospect — and when I realized that the person on the other side of the line was the director of the company, a sudden wave of intimidation ran through my body.

My voice became smaller.
My chest tightened.
When he said, “I’m not interested,” I felt a sting in my stomach, a kind of shame mixed with sadness.

In that moment, I saw how easily I still give away my power — how one word from someone else can change the way I breathe.

The Mind’s Hierarchy: Why I Feel Small

I’ve learned through the Desteni process that intimidation is not about the person in front of me.
It’s about my own relationship with authority — with the idea of “better” and “worse,” “higher” and “lower.”

Somewhere inside, I had accepted the belief that “directors” or “decision-makers” are more important than me.
That their opinion defines my worth.
That a rejection means I failed.

But that’s a lie.
It’s the lie of the mind’s hierarchy — the same lie that keeps humanity trapped in competition, in fear, in inequality.

In reality, when I speak to a director, I’m speaking to another human being — someone who also breathes, feels tired, has dreams, and makes mistakes.
When I’m intimidated, I separate myself from life itself. I create an imaginary wall between “me” and “them.”

Seeing the Pain of Rejection

When the person said, “not interested,” I felt pain — but not because of the words.
The pain came from my own interpretation:
that I am not good enough,
that I am not fast enough,
that I will never succeed.

I saw how my mind uses every rejection to feed self-judgment.
It’s like an echo of old memories — from school, from family, from past jobs — every moment where I felt less, unseen, unworthy.

Rejection activates those old programs.
But in truth, rejection is just data. It’s feedback, not a statement about who I am.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel intimidated when speaking to a company director.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define authority through fear, instead of equality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to titles and positions, forgetting that life is equal in all beings.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect “director” with “danger,” “judgment,” and “failure.”


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take rejection personally — as if it defines my worth.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek validation from prospects instead of standing in my self-trust.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel emotional pain when someone says “no,” instead of breathing and learning.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the mind interpret each call through fear and comparison.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget that authority is not outside of me — it begins with how I direct myself.

Self-Corrective Application

When and as I feel intimidated or small in front of someone with a title,
I stop and breathe.
I remind myself: This is a human being, just like me.

When and as I hear “not interested,”
I stop and breathe.
I remind myself: This is feedback, not rejection.

When and as I feel my chest tighten or my voice shrink,
I return to my breath, ground myself in my body, and speak from stability.

I remind myself that no one can give or take away my value — unless I agree to it.

Self-Commitment Statements

I commit myself to stand equal with every person I meet, no matter their position.


I commit myself to breathe through intimidation and transform it into calm presence.


I commit myself to no longer interpret rejection as failure but as part of learning.


I commit myself to walk each call as an opportunity to grow in stability and awareness.


I commit myself to remain stable in who I am — not moved by fear, status, or emotion.


I commit myself to live the word equality — not just as an idea, but as a physical presence in every interaction.

Living Redefinition

Authority (Redefined):
Authority is the expression of self-direction through stability, presence, and clarity.
It’s not about control over others — it’s about responsibility over myself.

Conclusion

I see now that every call is a mirror.
The person on the other end is not my enemy or my test — they are a reflection showing me where I still separate myself from life.

When I breathe, when I slow down, when I stand equal — there is no authority, no hierarchy, no fear.
Only communication. Only presence. Only life meeting life.

And that is real power.
That is self-authority.


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