Day 7 : I miss you

 

Yesterday, I was feeling an emotion that is in the center of my solar plexus that I name "I miss you" emotion. An emotion where my mind start looking for something to do to feel comfort and whole and complete, In this case my mind was thinking about calling someone that love me unconditionally or playing guitar. And as I was participating with that emotion and those thoughts I did choose playing guitar. So I start playing and I did let my hands decide without consciously deciding what to play and my unconscious mind come with a Harmonic cycle that I did never play before and as I played it, I really enjoyed at the point of recording it and dancing on the sound of it and sharing it with some friends. But as I get to my place to continue the work of today I felt this emotion of "I miss you" again but more intense at the point of resisting continuing the work and wanting just to play games. But as I was there I stopped and breathe and decided to write about that and do self forgiveness.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the emotion of "I miss you". I miss your love. I want to be One with you. Living in the mind in the separation between Me as Life and the ones I think I miss.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with the emotion of "I miss you" instead of  breathing, stopping the mind and forgiving this emotion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress this emotion of "I miss you" with playing guitar where I let my unconscious mind express and participate more in this emotion playing this harmonic cycle of music that take me in a dream world of the mind living in a joy feeling. And as I returned to reality I felt more of the emotion of "I miss you".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this emotion of "I miss you" in all and every close relationships I did create by having separation as starting point of those relationships.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that I as Life as the physical I am One and Equal with everyone, I am Complete, and Enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a starting point of my relationships as feeling not complete, not enough, needing to feel loved and appreciated needing to be, or to talk with someone to feel complete enough and loved.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to direct my physical body and my beingness with emotions and thoughts of "I miss you".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this emotion of "I miss you" when I did accept and allow myself to be identified to the mind and live in separation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live in Equality and Oneness with everyone and all Life. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that the emotion of "I miss you" mean in fact I miss being directed and under control of the mind conscious system. As what I was really missing is what my mind created as images, personalities, energies and data profile of those persons.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a profile data for every person that I interact with in my mind and behave with them based on that profile data. Instead of every time I interact with them be here with every breath and interact with them as Life as the physical substance.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to forgive this energy and emotion of "I miss you"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of "I miss you" instead of taking a deep breath in, stopping the mind and forgiving this emotion while breathing out.

 

Commitments:

I commit myself to when and as I feel the emotion of "I miss you" take a deep breath in, stopping the mind and forgiving this emotion while breathing out. Reminding myself that this emotion may exist within me but it does not define who I am or how I behave.

I commit myself to assist myself with self forgiveness and self correction and self application to deconstruct all patterns and dimensions of this emotion of "I miss you".

I commit myself to free myself from all the energies I did create within every relationship I had.