Day 5 : Facing regret and anxiety

Today I realized that as I start moving myself towards change not allowing and accepting the mind conscious system to direct me, there is an energy in my solar plexus pressing all the area around the point of my solar plexus and moving sometimes to my stomach. And the same energy exist in my left hand.

And as I am doing my self forgiveness today I realized that part of this energy is regret and anxiety.

So here my self forgiveness about that :

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as regret in relationship with the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped in the mind by always allowing and accepting the emotion of regret, the thought of regret, the back chat of regret and the justification of regret.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that the energy I feel in my solar plexus and that move to my right chest and left chest and in my left hand is regret emotion mixed with anxiety as fear to do the same mistakes of the past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk to myself as a mistake

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to face this energy in my solar plexus and my left arm with breathing and moving myself within every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to at the end of the week count out my mistakes, what I did plan to do and not did. and start justification in my mind. Not seeing and realizing that I am allowing and accepting to live in the past as mind, creating more of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to face regret and fear to make the same mistake with giving up in the addiction of living in the mind for minutes, hours, days, weeks and sometimes for months.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed with regret and anxiety emotion to live in the mind thinking about and regretting my past,  fearing and being terrified of my future. And in doing that creating pain in my back, tiredness and heaviness in my head. And when I feel the pain in my back and tiredness and heaviness in my head I regret creating that.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that I can face and correct anything in the moment by breathing being here and moving myself with the physical. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that as I am writing self forgiveness about this emotion, and it still exists within me, my self forgiveness is wrong, not correct.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that this living character of regret and anxiety is me not wanting to change, not wanting to birth myself from the physical, not wanting to create myself as Life as what is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret starting something and not finishing the cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret planning doing something and not doing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not reaching my goals.

I commit myself to breathe and within every breath make sure that I am here as Self , stopping the mind. Living here and now as Life.

I commit myself to continue breathing being here and not giving up on that that energy in my solar plexus and my left hand.

I commit myself to continue writing about this energy so I can deconstruct all the mind conscious system ways of creating it.