Day 18 : Possession 2

 

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the thoughts, the images, the emotions, the energy and become possessed when I experience sex urge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have emotions and feelings that I haven’t dealt with yet during the day that get compacted within me, and that require release. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to when and as I see emotions or feelings rising within my physical body; to stop and breathe into that emotion, breathe into that feeling and stop. And as I breathe out I let go the emotion or feeling and release it back to earth.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my mind consciousness system within my physical body  has been set up to not release all the emotions and feelings within me, but to place it in a ‘holding container’ to be released through the sexual experience. So I have to unshackle this chain of sex system within my unconscious mind by investigating it and being awareness of my physical body and as any emotions or feelings rise; release it through the breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become fully and completely participant within the thoughts and emotions or feelings. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to be the observer and stop the mind and breathe when I see thoughts, emotions or feelings.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that even when a thought reactions or behaviors get triggered and I become fully participant within it, I am still observing, I can see the triggers and my participation. And that's give me that ability to respond; that authority as the directive principle within me to be able to forgive the thoughts, forgive the backchat, slow down the emotions, identify the source and origin of what triggered and activated within me? where the triggers and activation of that pre-programming comes from ? And accordingly redefine and live a new word within those such moments.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand why full on possessions actually exists.Where my entire conscious subconscious and unconscious mind wraps my entire beingness into one program one system one construct  within myself. And I remain charged and defined and existed within that one program system or construct, for days on it. And can charge and supercharge so much energy into that one program system or construct that's allows me to remain in that possession for quite some times.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that the reason why that extent of Possession exists is just the typing of the scales that happens. Meaning that I do have in my day momentary Possessions, the mini Possessions. Those are Possessions. Because I become completely controlled by my own thoughts backchat emotions behaviors that coming from within my mind conscious system programming. And in doing so I open the doors to full possessions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to clearly define those momentary and mini Possessions as Possessions. Because if those mini or every day Possessions exists within myself; then it won't take much for something to happen with someone in a situation or experience unexpectedly unpredictability in my every day life and my mind can just suck my entire beingness awareness into itself into one program system construct and create a more extensive Possession within me.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that those every day or mini Possessions indicates in my relationship with the mind is that my beingness my awareness is not yet strengthen in my relationship mind enough where I can directed it effectively. I can stand with it effectively. Here I've got to self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not strengthen my beingness, my awareness in my relationship with the mind where I can direct the mind and stand with it effectively.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that self honesty can be challenging. self honesty takes me to that mirror of myself where I see things of what they are. And sometimes when I see things of what they are; they are not always beautiful magnificent great good in any way or so over. The reality of myself and our mind,  the nature of it is often times troublesome challenging difficult and not easy to look at. But it is in those moments when I am self honest, I can self honestly reflect on the reality of what going on inside myself; that I empower myself to be able to do something about it. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that the more I resist self honesty that reflection of what is really here as it is here as it exists within and as me. The more I resist that, the more I am fighting it and the more I am going into polarity of that which I resist persist.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that with every day life Possessions I got balance in the sense of much of my beingness is channeled into a particular thought pattern or reaction pattern and behavior pattern that trigger on a conscious subconscious and unconscious mind level. But even despite much of my beingness is being channeled into it, there is also lot of my beingness free that can still see and experience and participate in an observer stance what happening within myself. But within full on possessions, about 99% of my beingness is channeled into a particular system construct or program. But even despite that there is still part of my beingness that is very much aware.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that in full on possessions,  much of my beingness is so much into the mind into that one program system and construct that I am trapped in fights harder to remain their stay there to stand within that possession because its so much energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that when it come to full on possessions I've got to work with the energy in the sense of releasing the energy as well as aligning the beingness back into the physical body. releasing the beingness while releasing the energy at the same time. Because in full on possessions the mind uses the energy within that possession to take hold of and imprison and trap and contain the being

I commit myself to when and as I see myself experiencing full on possession, write or sound self forgiveness to release the energy that the mind use to take hold of and imprison and trap and contain the being. And in the same time align my being back into the physical body with breathing deeply and being aware of the physical body here and now.

I commit myself to when and as I see the triggers and my participation in a possession to respond as authority as the directive principle within me and forgive the thoughts, forgive the backchat, slow down the emotions, identify the source and origin of what triggered and activated within me? where the triggers and activation of that pre-programming comes from ? And accordingly redefine and live a new word within those such moments.

I commit myself to strengthen my beingness, my awareness in my relationship with the mind so I can direct the mind and stand with it effectively.

I commit myself to practice finding and developing practical methods to stand within maintain a balance between observer and participant when it comes to my mini Possessions, every day life Possessions that comes up within myself.