Day 27 : Giving up

 When I look up in the dictionary about the definition of give up here what I found :


1. cease making an effort; admit defeat
2. allow oneself to be taken over by an emotion or addiction.
3.part with something that one would prefer to keep
4.deliver a wanted person to the authorities
5.stop hoping that someone is still going to arrive

And when I ask myself what is giving up and how it manifest within me, here is what comes :

Giving is all the above mentioned in the definition, and it happen with me in 2 ways :
1. Giving up on myself, on my process of birthing myself from the physical
2. Giving up on others, when I dont care and take full responsibility of members of my families and persons that I am supporting.

Self-forgiveness :

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cease making an effort; admit defeat when and as I fail to stand and to live change in relation to a possession, pattern, or program of the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be taken over by an emotion or addiction or possession.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the mind conscioussystem, possessions, patterns, and mind programs to part with myself, part with my mind, part with my physical body and with my beingness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliver myself as mind, physical body and beingness to the mind consciousness system as possessions,  mind patterns, triggers, memories, mind programs. And give the authority to those mind conscious system over Me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  give up on persons that I am responsible on them. Give up on make love real with them and  supporting them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about giving up whenever I fall in the same mistake or mind possession.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell people that support me in my head  to give up on me and don't waste time with me 


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and be aware of thoughts and emotions of giving up when it comes.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with giving up when I fall in the same mistake.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell myself there is no point of trying and trying and trying to stop this mind possession because you are always caught in repeating the same mistake.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand all the mind construct about giving up. What is the thoughts, emotions, backchats, body physiology that I experience within giving up.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that the expression of giving up comes within me mostly in relation to a possession that I was living for years and years, trying to overcome it with different ways, methods and self development programs. And as I failed to overcome it and live the change in relation to it, last years, I start experiencing giving up on myself for days, weeks and sometimes months.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that the first thing that comes within me before giving up, is a deep feeling of the emotion of Defeat. And with that emotion, I became and believe 100% of the thoughts : I am a looser, I cannot Win, The mind system has more power than me, I can't do anything to change this, I am powerless, hopeless

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