Day 82 : Despair

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in despair, thinking and believing that nothing work, I can’t change,  everything is wrong and nothing will turn out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't want to do anything, 

1. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand how despair functions as a systemized energy designed to suppress my will and perseverance.

2. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be aware of how I have positioned my consciousness and beingness into the lower dimensions of my mind and body when experiencing despair, feeling as though I am being sucked into a deep, dark hole within myself.

3. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the experience of despair, believing that I am powerless and incapable of finding stability or motivation to change my circumstances.

4. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience despair as a deep, dark state where I feel like the life is being sucked out of me, not realizing that this is a programmed response meant to suppress my natural tendency to stand up and fight through challenges.

5. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to confuse the emotional experiences of helplessness and hopelessness with despair, not realizing that despair encompasses a more profound suppression of my beingness, merging various emotions into one system that further weakens my resolve.

6. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to life's challenges with despair instead of accessing my inner strength, will, and perseverance to endure and find solutions, thereby allowing the despair system to take control over my mind and body.

7. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts that originate from the lower parts of my mind when experiencing despair, reinforcing the feeling of being stuck and unable to move forward.

8. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that despair is not just an emotional reaction but a systemized energy designed to bend and break my spirit, making me believe that I have no power to change or overcome my circumstances.

Self-Commitment Statements

1. I commit myself to become aware of how I position my consciousness and beingness in different energy states, and to recognize when I am entering a state of despair so that I can redirect myself toward stability and self-empowerment.

2. I commit myself to recognize and understand the difference between despair and other emotional experiences like helplessness and hopelessness, and to not allow the merging of these emotions into a single overwhelming state.

3. I commit myself to stand up and face challenges with resilience and determination, refusing to give into the despair system that seeks to suppress my natural will to live, persevere, and find solutions.

4. I commit myself to remain present and aware of my thoughts and energy movements within my mind and body, especially when I feel myself sinking into a low energy state, so that I can intervene and lift myself out of it.

5. I commit myself to practice self-honesty in identifying when I am allowing despair to dictate my actions and experiences, and to apply self-forgiveness and self-corrective actions to move out of this state.

6. I commit myself to rebuild my self-trust by facing challenges directly, using them as opportunities to strengthen my inner resolve and commitment to change and growth.

7. I commit myself to not allow despair or any systemized energy to control or define who I am, understanding that I have the power to change my experiences and responses to life's difficulties.

8. I commit myself to investigate and dismantle the layers of despair within my mind and body, ensuring that I do not allow any form of suppression to take hold of my beingness and expression.