Radouane's Journey to Life

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel and react with the emotion of dishonor and shame when and as I do something wrong or I fail to succeed in something or I fall in the possession of the mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship of dishonor with myself and others when and as I do mistakes, specifically big mistakes  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that feeling dishonor and shame help me to not fall in the same mistake an other time. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand from where I took this program of dishonor and shame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I was child to program myself with shame and dishonor program as I hear adult saying shame on you if you do this or that. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that shame a...

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to apply practical application, assistance and support in relation to the quantified memory possessions that can happen in a moment, also because of the mind essentially becoming physical. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from an afternoon into an evening or from evening to morning or from morning to afternoon I got myself into a full on desire obsession within myself, and really going into the desire and excitation emotions were creating within me based on how I got so stuck on that last moment within the memory, instead of slowing down, calming down and really walking through the memory and myself within it in as much detail as possible.  I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand the way the mind uses emotions and projections in relation to others to hide the real truth, the real responsibility, the real reflection that has to be done which is o...

    I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to walk the process of understanding and also defining my relationship with the word possession and the experience of possession and also the existence of possession or possession moments within myself and in my everyday lives and then also having a look at the more severe cases of thought possession, backchat possession, emotional possession within myself  that I can cycle within for days, weeks and months on end.  I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to get quite a strong beingness, awareness sense within myself to the extent where even while I am within my momentary possessions in my  everyday life, I am  very much aware of my thoughts, the backchats, the emotional experiences.  And So  I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to change right there the questions that  about asking myself  why am I still in this, in this momen...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the egotistical arrogance of being in control of my mind in the sense  making statements like, I will never be or become addicted to this or that.   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the egotistical arrogance of being in control of my mind in the sense  making statements like, I can start and stop a possession at any time. and in allowing that, I justify starting a possession.   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go to that egotistical arrogance of I will never become addicted or I will never shift into the state of addiction as where I am at. I'm not addicted, I just try this. I forgive myself that I have  accepted and allowed myself to not be aware of how quickly a relationship with something can become addictive and especially how it will creep up ever so slowly and subtly and slyly over time.   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ...

 As was in in Facebook, at some point I start watching my videos and pictures, and I experienced Nostalgia as a  prolonged unfulfilled desire or need  for things in the past. so I did continue watching until I finished watching all positive memories I shared in Facebook and Instagram. And that was not the first time I experience this energetic reaction of Nostalgia.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in very deep, extensive, possessed states.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear these possessions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist these possessions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge these possessions.. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react these possessions. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to understand these possessions instead of  fear them or resist them or judge them and react to them, but rather understand. Because, possessions can become so intense, extensive and overwhelming that no matter what anyone else says or does or tries to say or tries to do, the mind in a possessed state can be very creative and innovative in retaliating and fighting back and resisting and rebelling and doing everything and anything possible to maintain the possessed state....

  When I look up in the dictionary about the definition of give up here what I found : 1. cease making an effort; admit defeat 2. allow oneself to be taken over by an emotion or addiction. 3.part with something that one would prefer to keep 4.deliver a wanted person to the authorities 5.stop hoping that someone is still going to arrive And when I ask myself what is giving up and how it manifest within me, here is what comes : Giving is all the above mentioned in the definition, and it happen with me in 2 ways : 1. Giving up on myself, on my process of birthing myself from the physical 2. Giving up on others, when I dont care and take full responsibility of members of my families and persons that I am supporting. Self-forgiveness : I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to cease making an effort; admit defeat when and as I fail to stand and to live change in relation to a possession, pattern, or program of the mind. I forgive myself t...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety as a relatively permanent state of worry and nervousness occurring in a variety of mental disorders, usually accompanied by compulsive behavior or attacks of panic. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anxiety when I don't understand something I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety as a vague unpleasant emotion that is experienced in anticipation of some  ill-defined misfortune. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anxiety when I don't want to do something I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the energy of anxiety. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that anxiety as an energy that is experienced more like something undefined it's like there in my solar plexus and it has a slightly intense vibration or fie...

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that an another interesting dimension that can contribute to keeping me within a state of possession, and that is me judging the possession, or the experience, or what it is that I am going through within a certain state or experience of possession. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself while I am in a possession. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed all the thoughts and backchats and emotional experiences and that actually show that I do see what I am going through, and that I am very much aware of what I am accepting and allowing.   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself with a specific platform like being in the center of my   head, and standing in the center of that platform. And seeing different types of sunglasses, looking from up top down at me, and it's five pairs of sunglasses, different pair...