Radouane's Journey to Life

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand what is the system within the mind that is involved with contributing to the emotional experience and physical possession of giving up.  I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see and realize what and who within the mind consciousness system  drives me and motivates me to that point of giving up and with it motivating and driving me to the point of giving up it becomes an emotional reaction as well as a physical possession. In other words I get driven to giving up on an energetic level as well as a physical level.  I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that this particular system that is involved with this or such a reaction or response to something or someone within my minds and or my worlds is quite different to most systems or emotional reactions that I have walked thus far because it reaches out not only into my minds b...

 What is Love? Why I crave for Love sometimes? What is my relationship with the word Love? How Love define me and my relationships? How Love contribute to me feeling complete or incomplete? How I can make love practical and live it as what is best for all life? I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that Love is just an energy that I experience in my physical body. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to really investigating and going very deeply into that energy of love. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to identify the context where I experience Love in my relationships with family, partner, food, experiences, and everything , and then identify the energy, and within that as well the physical response. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be specific in relation to identifying the energy, and understand that this is an entirely new concept, that love isn't love energy, me...

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to walk all the four  dimensions of annoyance, the first being self-annoyance, the second being when the emotional annoyance comes up in relation to another, third being annoyance when I am in a situation within a job where I do not have the authority or the power to speak up or even change the inter-office relationships or dynamics and structure of an entire business or company, and then the fourth being the dimension where I walk my process and I take a moment of change as an absolute and then project it onto and towards future change instead of realizing that change I have to walk moment by moment and day by day, meaning when I face a moment of change it's like to accept the change and embrace the change yet at the same time be prepared for an absolutely new moment of change or realizations, not to carry a change onto the next moment or the next day. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see and have a l...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not have a look at opening up, really writing out this relationship with self-annoyance. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that I am  in fact always quite clear in relation to who I am and what I see, yet in terms of releasing myself from what I am clear on what I'm seeing, that is still a whole other story. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to have a look at self-annoyance in relation to the things within myself and my own personal process, where I know what I am capable of, because I have proven it to myself and shown it to myself before, but yet despite having that proof, I still find that I tend to unnecessarily fall into reactions and habits and patterns within me and that in itself also create an experience of annoyance.   I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to have a look at any memories of things that I have transcen...

  I remember when I started learning and refreshing my knowledge about Very large scale Integration VLSI to apply for jobs in this field, I faced a lot of annoyance and irritation and resistance. So Before starting this learning I did see my potential of what I can be and become in this field as engineer and sales facilitators for big companies and also I did see how getting this job can really help me to stabilize my finances and build my TT business. And what comes up within my mind and my behavior  : First big resistance towards return to be employee in my field. And also resistance to re learn and just staying learning for hours was challenging. While I was learning  I experienced my mind jumping on a lot of things just to distract me from learning. And things that my mind bring while I am learning was most things I crave for. Within my behavior what really made me give up after 2 weeks is first putting a deadline to finish mastering all technical knowledge of a bo...

  I am going to do a 21 Day self-forgiveness challenge, where I write a Blog every single day specifically with self-forgiveness. I encourage you to Join me on this 21 Days, I will be taking on all the Main topics and who I am currently within these Topics. So here it is  Day 1  : Annoyance in learning new things or facing challenges.   Annoyance, Irritation,  lot of thoughts jumping from nowhere, backchats, and my physical body pulling me to do other things rather than learning new things or facing a challenge ; This is what I experience when learning new things or facing a challenge. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react and participate in the energy of annoyance and irritation when and as I am learning new things or facing a challenge. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with the mind thoughts, backchats, emotions and feelings when and as I am learning new things or experiencing a challenge. I forgi...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed  an unconscious pattern of playing games to immediately show up when and as I was waiting for someone or something. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that I react with the energy of anger and annoyance when and as someone or something is late and I must wait for it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with the energy and emotion of anger and annoyance when someone or something is late and I must wait. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that I was programmed since I was born to hate waiting, as I learned that from my parent and my environment. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to suppress the emotions of anger, annoyance, and mind tiredness with playing games instead of facing them and applying self forgiveness on them. I forgive myself that I have accepted a...