Radouane's Journey to Life

  As I was listening to What is sex part 1  and part 2 from eqafe.com , I found it very supporting to write self forgiveness and self commitment about that so here it is :  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to automatically associate the word "sex" with images, fantasies, and memories without considering the deeper meanings and influences behind these reactions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to not see realize and recognize  the deeper subconscious and unconscious programming that shapes my perceptions and behaviors around sex. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to define and experience sex  as and from the mind conscious system.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and driven by pre-programmed systems, including the sex system, which dictate my thoughts, emotions, and behaviors without my self direction. I forgive myself that I have accept...

 I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to practice the 4 counts breathing within every moment. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the inner conflict in me is the inner conflict in all other beings on earth as well. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my conflicts are unique and that I am alone. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself in every moment, leading to feelings of shame later on. Meaning not stop after the in-breath to see who I am within that moment and apply self forgiveness and self correction If I found any reactions or mind construct. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to practice Self-honesty within every moment meaning  practice being deeply and uncompromisingly truthful with myself. And observe and acknowledge my inner reactions, emotions, and thoughts without denial or justification. And take full ...

  I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to apply leadership on myself within every moment. Meaning be the directive principle of myself as one and equal with the physical substance. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define leadership in the context of leading and influencing others. Not seeing and realizing that I can not lead someone to do something without leading myself to do it first. So leadership is always self leading first. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that leadership without oneness and equally and what is best for all principles is ABUSE. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that self leadership is being the directive principle of my mind  and my physical body within every breath. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that self leadership is stopping...

### Self-Forgiveness Statements I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with painful emotions and thoughts and feel like a failure each time I fall into my old addiction. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with despair when I fall into my old addiction. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with the emotion of shame when I fall into my old addiction. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and participate in the thoughts of "I am a failure" as a result of trying to transcend this addiction but falling back into it. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that emotions and thoughts of despair only serve to close all doors and possibilities for me to live a life that is best for all life and to transcend this addiction. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be overwhelmed by intense emotions and...

I was working on preparing for my job interview. As I felt sleepy and tired, I searched for music on YouTube to wake up. While searching, I found a chess video, which led me to spend days watching YouTube, scrolling, and chatting. I noticed that the sleepiness and tiredness I felt were not just physical but also mental. My mind was overwhelmed with the amount of preparation needed for the job interview. Instead of breathing or exercising to rejuvenate myself, I fell into the habit of looking for distractions. Finding the chess video provided an easy escape from the pressure I was feeling. This led to a cycle of watching videos, scrolling through short videos, and chatting, which consumed days of my time and pulled me away from my goals. As I continued to engage in these distractions, I felt a mix of guilt and frustration. I knew I was avoiding my responsibilities, but the allure of these distractions was strong. It became clear that I was using these activities to numb the stress and a...

Since I started TT business as senior dealer, I many time stopped the business when I didn't see results for a while. Stopping the business was for 2 weeks to 1 month. Then because I was not making enough money from this business, I decided to find a job to support my financial needs and to support building this business. But since I make this decision to find a job, I stopped TT business for a long time more than 5 months , and even when I returned to do the business, I work for this business a day and I stop for week or more. doing this business is very simple, its about  hitting  specific weekly targets: twenty pitches, six presentations, and one sale. However, I have been struggling to meet these numbers consistently.  The biggest obstacle I face is the doubt about making the sale every week  to make money. This doubt often overwhelms me and impacts my ability to perform my tasks effectively.  My mind constantly goes back to past experiences, reminding me th...

  I sometimes interact with females and behave in a good manner, but afterwards, I start thinking and projecting that this female is talking about me positively. This projection may be tied to a desire for validation and approval, which is a natural human tendency. When I project that someone is thinking highly of me, it might be my way of affirming my self-worth. Emotionally, it could be linked to a need for acceptance and recognition. Energy-wise, this positive projection might temporarily boost my self-esteem and make me feel good about myself. However, the underlying desire might be a deeper need to feel valued and respected by others. Self-Forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek validation from females to boost my self-esteem and self-worth. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project and see females as having a positive and high image about me so I can validate my value and self-worth. I forgive myself that I...

  I'm preparing for a job interview and reading a lot of new information. Despite getting enough sleep, I find myself almost dozing off for short periods, around thirty seconds to a minute, before waking up and continuing. This cycle repeats, making it hard to stay focused. It's frustrating because I want to absorb the material, but my brain seems to shut down momentarily. ### Self-Forgiveness Statements I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel frustrated when I almost fall asleep while reading new information, even though I know I'm well-rested. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel like my brain is shutting down and for struggling to stay focused despite using techniques like listening to music and moving my body. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel judgment or disappointment about this experience. I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize, and understand that my mind and body a...

Sometimes, I experience this fear of failure and fear of giving up. It manifests as a strong energy in my solar plexus, and this fear activates within me the urge for all my old addictions. Before this overwhelming fear sets in, I often experience doubts about my ability to stay standing and not fall back into these addictions. These doubts make me feel insecure and question my resilience and strength. Self-Forgiveness: I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with fear of failure and fear of giving up into old addictions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt my ability to stand within my physical body stable and aware of my breath and not falling into old addictions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts that doubt my ability to always stay standing and not falling or giving up on old addictions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed t hese doubts to make me feel insecure and ...

  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with loneliness when I am alone. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to check my phone every minute to seek validation from others, instead of finding validation within myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want oneness with female as a way to feel connected and valued, rather than cultivating a sense of self-worth and connection from within. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself from my work by looking at my phone every minute and wanting to connect with others, using it as an escape from my responsibilities and feelings of discomfort. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that my worth and happiness depend on the attention and responses from others, rather than recognizing my intrinsic value. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel insecure and seeking external validation to compensate for these feeling...

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand that connection is one personality of sex personalities.  I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see realize and understand how we can take one word and create an entire personality from and of that one word, primarily in relation to sex and relationships, and if that personality is not fulfilled within that context, will then attempt or try to fulfill itself through other relationships or other ways, means and methods within and throughout my life. So, to source sex personalities, one have a look at how one have defined who I am in relationship to sex, meaning what is it that I want, what is it that I look for, what is it that I desire, what does sex give me, , what does or how does sex in itself define me.   I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to walk through more sex personality examples to assist and support me in my process in such a way that I do ...