Radouane's Journey to Life

  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anger in my life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry as a defensive mechanics when I fear someone or something. So I decided to be angry toward this thing or this person to protect myself from what I did experienced in the past in relationship with that thing or that person. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I experience pain and sorrow with someone or something, I decide to be angry toward this person or this thing so I can protect myself from pain and sorrow. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that anger make me powerful and give me the power to protect myself from pain and sorrow in all my relationships. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and live in separation and inequality from persons, situations, and things when I become angry. I forgive myself that I have accepted...

    This article is the continuous part of Day 10 and Day 9 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use regret as glace of perception of my past mistakes and failures and in doing so preventing myself to change and keeping myself in the same mistakes and failures. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create my relationships within the starting point of self interest and in doing so always failing to produce a result that is best for all and so experiencing regret. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on regret as a way to punish myself for the mistakes and failures I have done. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that there is nothing to change about the past, so regret is irrelevant. looking and investigating the past is for the purpose of living as Life completely free from the past. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use...

  This article is the second part of Day 9 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within the regret of bad habits Giving so much attention and attachment to those acts and believing that I am a failure and a mistake because of my past bad habits and behaviors. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within the regret of falling in bad habits/patterns, defining myself as failure and mistake when I get trapped in those habits that is not best for all life. Not seeing that living within regret of that, is participating in the mind where I can not see realize why I did make the decision to fall in those patterns?  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ask myself those questions of  :  Why I did it? I must of ..? I could of ... within the nature of self judgement self pity and victimization. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build on the energy of regret asking myself ...

 Regret is one of my main state I had lived and experienced as a person. This is the state where I define myself as Mistake and Failure. This is the state where I want to change but I want it to happen without me doing anything, because in this state I loose trust on myself as I see the evidence that I did fail another time so why standing up ? This is the state and point where I fall and I stay laying down in the pit I of all mistakes and failures and bad things I did in the past. And while I am in this hole and pit of regret and remorse, I want to stand up but I don't because I don't want to forgive myself because I did fail again. Living in regret for days, weeks, and sometimes months has many dimensions and factors, but this point was defining me all my life. So it is time to face this point, investigating all the dimensions and factors of it and forgiving the I ( the mind), the my (personality who I am at this moment) and  the self (physical body and beingness) from all t...

What is Life? This is a question to investigate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define LIFE based on what I was taught from my parents, schools, books, and all the words I read about life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define LIFE as how much money I have and what I can do with it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define LIFE as having my perfect partner and experiencing Love. I forgive myself  that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define LIFE as overcoming all my challenges and what I defined as bad in Me. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand what is all the definitions and meanings I give to LIFE that is not actually and practically what is LIFE . I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and define LIFE as changing myself and changing this world I forgive myself that I have ac...

  Yesterday, I was feeling an emotion that is in the center of my solar plexus that I name "I miss you" emotion. An emotion where my mind start looking for something to do to feel comfort and whole and complete, In this case my mind was thinking about calling someone that love me unconditionally or playing guitar. And as I was participating with that emotion and those thoughts I did choose playing guitar. So I start playing and I did let my hands decide without consciously deciding what to play and my unconscious mind come with a Harmonic cycle that I did never play before and as I played it, I really enjoyed at the point of recording it and dancing on the sound of it and sharing it with some friends. But as I get to my place to continue the work of today I felt this emotion of "I miss you" again but more intense at the point of resisting continuing the work and wanting just to play games. But as I was there I stopped and breathe and decided to write about that and ...

 As I was redefining the word Satisfied to live it as that what is best for all life, I found that when looking at the root of this word it is  from "satis" meaning enough and "facere"  meaning make. So the definition that I see is best for all life is: make myself enough, be content with ME as One and Equal with all life. And that mean for me allow myself to see realize and understand that I am as Life here and now enough to correct everything in my life and in this world. And what that mean to live satisfied is to make myself enough within every breath, breathing and realizing that I AM as Self and as the physical substance as Life is Enough. I am enough. That mean also write self forgiveness about how I was been dissatisfied disconnected with Me with life with the physical as I was identified to the mind and to the definition of satisfied as being financially free and having my ideal partner and making all my dreams come true and other definition that is not ...

Today I realized that as I start moving myself towards change not allowing and accepting the mind conscious system to direct me, there is an energy in my solar plexus pressing all the area around the point of my solar plexus and moving sometimes to my stomach. And the same energy exist in my left hand. And as I am doing my self forgiveness today I realized that part of this energy is regret and anxiety. So here my self forgiveness about that : I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as regret in relationship with the past I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped in the mind by always allowing and accepting the emotion of regret, the thought of regret, the back chat of regret and the justification of regret. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that the energy I feel in my solar plexus and that move to my right chest and left chest and in my left hand is regret emotion m...

  Today I wake up before the time I did plane to wake up at with massive fear within my physical body. Self forgiveness:  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand what was the fear I was experiencing in my physical body when I wake up this morning.   I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand what was the personality based on fear, I was busy activating this morning when I wake up   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this energy in my physical body and allow it to direct me in thinking instead of relaxing and giving a great sleep to my physical body   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with this energy of fear with thinking, and back chat instead of applying self awareness and self forgiveness within every breath I take.   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to face f...

  I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully understand and grasp what is Energy I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by moods and how I feel as energetic experience I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be identified as Energy, thoughts, emotions I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand how I created this physical 3 dimensional life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist only as Energy within and money without I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still create and participate with energy as emotion and feeling experiences. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop the abuse of the physical by the energy as emotions feelings and thoughts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the mind conscious system as emotion...

This morning I was in the bathroom and I was thinking about the next action and now I am walking and breathing but my mind bring the thought of hurry up and finish exercising to work on the next action. Through  this day and in the past I noticed that a lot of time I am not fully here in the present moment with the actual action I am doing. Self forgiveness :   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  think about what I should do when I finish the action I am doing.  I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to understand my mind and understand the message that is behind this communication of hurry up. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand what is the emotion behind hurry up thoughts. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be here with my physical body fully focused on the action I am doing without any interference of the mind about the future or the p...

Today I want to write about how I postponed starting this blog and sharing my Journey to life.  Every time I want to create this blog some idea comes like :  It is not urgent to do it now Not urgent to do it this day You are not good at writing Self forgiveness that you had write in the past is very personal, you cannot share it in public. I t's take time to create and post an article in this blog. You have to work on your principal goal first And so I postponed writing and sharing my Journey to life not just days but for months.   Self Forgiveness, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone starting this blog and sharing my Journey to life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think : it is not urgent to create this blog and share my journey to life. And not take my responsibility to organize and find time to get this action done that I postponed for months. I forgive myself that I have accepted and a...